What makes you stay?

I love what i'm doing. When i was interviewed for my position they asked me why do you want to be a trainer?

Because i love teaching. I want to touch other's lives. Sounds corny? Maybe but that's my purpose.

I attended a funeral a few years back. The man lying inside the coffin was a family friend's son. He was so young. He died before he was 30 and left 2 kids. I know he had a great life. He had a happy family. He had lots of friends. We stayed there for a few hours. I was getting bored because i didn't have friends with me. I know the people, but we were just acquaintances. I stood up and checked a wall filled with letters. I started reading them. I had to stop myself from crying then. The letters came from his friends. Letters that contained what they are feeling about him, how he was a part of their lives. Every story i read was a happy one but still it left me very sad. 

He was very fortunate to have a lot of people loving him a lot. It was just a short stay here on Earth but he definitely fulfilled his purpose. He made others happy. I sat down and i began thinking what would others feel when i died.

When they told me that i was accepted for the position, i had mixed emotions. Are they serious? Can i really be a trainer? I started doubting if i can reach their expectations.

When i was young i wanted to be a teacher. I wanted to take up education when i was in college but my parents wanted me to take up Chemical Engineering. And so i did what they wanted. It was really hard for me because my heart wasn't there. I wanted to teach because i wanted to prepare my students for their future. I wanted to make a difference but that dream didn't happen because i had a different course, not related to what i want to do.

During college there were ups and downs. I learned a lot, more about life rather than school. After graduation i took up the board exam but God had a different plan for me.

I was having my final interview for a company related to my course. My phone rang and when i answered it was a man asking me if i could show up for my contract signing for one of the call centers in makati. Of course i showed up because i was being practical, they were offering a better package.

After 2 years working with my company, my supervisor told me that he wanted to talk to me. What was running inside my head was, what is it this time? Did i do something wrong again. Of course not, i know i was doing my job well but still i always had that idea that i'm always screwing things up. My sup told me that our manager might be interviewing me because he recommended me to be a peer mentor. I told him ok, nothing sure for now. I went back to my chair and after 10 minutes my manager pressed meeting mode. She told me i was going to have my training on Monday. I was expecting we will just be helping out agents while they were taking calls. Nobody told us that we were going to be peer trainers. What a training it was. I was so scared, everyday we had to discuss a topic in front of our trainers, managers, supervisors, program director. Pressure!

That was the start. I had a lot feedbacks then, negative and positive. I didn't know if my students were learning anything from me. I was just teaching then, doing my job.

After 5 years. I'm still teaching. What's different now is i am more relaxed, more confident. And I love what i'm doing. After each class there would be agents coming up to me, telling me their experiences, asking for advice.

It's always great to look back and remember where you came from. There might have been changes but as long as you know what you're goal is you'll never go wrong. And God actually led me to where i wanted to be.

I want to touch other people's lives. No matter how short you were with them people would remember you. Maybe not your name just your face. Or maybe just your name but not the face.

Maybe when i die i would also have that wall filled with letters of how i touched their lives. I want that wall. I would go up in heaven smiling because i know that i have served my purpose. I left a footstep in your heart.