I've been feeling depressed this past few days. Maybe it's because of the holidays. We've been having some family problems and no matter how hard i try to ignore them i can't stop myself from thinking of the better years we've had before. Well i think the only solution to make myself feel better is to think of the nice things that happened this year.

I can already sleep well since two of the people that i think I've hurt before are now back to my life and we're friends again.

My ex-boyfriend. I was doing my usual admin work at the office when i received an invitation in my YM. I had to close my eyes and open it again thinking that i was only dreaming. We haven't been talking for the last 5 years. We didn't end up in a good way when we broke up. We just didn't talk anymore, which made me sad for a lot of years since we had a lot of friends in common and i know they have been wanting us to talk since it has been a lot of years ago. When i received the YM invite, all i could say is are you sure that you know who you're inviting. He said yes and that's where it started. We started talking and telling stories of what happened to our lives the past few years. We went out twice already to have lunch. At first it was very awkward since i didn't know what to feel, but the second was great. It seems like nothing bad has happened to us and were friends again. It was nice knowing that you have a friend back in your life.

My cousin. I had done things in the past that hurt her. It was not my intention but i knew that it affected her a lot. It also affected my relationship with some of my relatives. i know no matter how hard i try to fix things, it will never be the same. Every year when we had our vacation i would see her and we were casual. But it was not the same way as our relationship anymore, we were very close when we were growing up but we grew apart because of what happened almost 10 years ago. One day i opened my friendster account and again i was surprised to see a message coming from her saying that she's ok now and she wants us to be ok, like what we were when we were young. It was a relief reading the message. We started texting as well like friends. I know she is going through a lot right now and i was there to listen to her problems. When we went to the province  i saw her there and the invisible wall that came between us before was no longer there . It was nice talking to her again.

Others might say that they don't care if some people come and go. I'm the type who would like to have people come and stay. Friends might be there once in a while but once i have a friend he/she will always be a friend, no matter how short the friendship was you'll never be forgotten. I also value my family a lot. If i could just share all the blessings that God had given me i will always do it for them.

Now these are some of the things that i should be thankful of this past year. Aside from the other blessings that i've been receiving. It's not the material things that matter but the relationships that i have with people who i value a lot.

In a few more days it will be 2009. I know God has a plan for me and my family, whether it be good or bad i know He has a purpose and i will prepare myself to face all the challenges that will go my way. I feel nervous and excited for the coming year since i don't know what's going to happen but whatever it is i'll do my best to have a wonderful year ahead.